17:45 <Pinkbeast> -!- Ellied is now known as eigenellies

17:46 <Pinkbeast> Hm?

17:47 <eigenellies> yep! that's us

17:47 <eigenellies> (also hi longtimenosee)

17:48 <eigenellies> yeah so basically sometime about a year ago we figured out - at last, haha - that there are actually five identities here in our brain, not one

17:48 <eigenellies> so now we use we instead of i and, for a number of reasons, have selected the username "eigenellies" as our new primary name

17:52 <eigenellies> the main reasoning behind it, as we suspect you are curious to hear, is that our best model for how our mind works is that we're made up of five orthogonal basis vectors that form our moment-to-moment state in variable combination. eigenpersonalities, if you like

17:54 <eigenellies> the main bit that makes it A Thing is that the projection of our state vector onto each eigenvector determines how easily we can access that eigenvector's independent set of memories

17:55 <eigenellies> among other things, but memory segmentation is what the psychs always check when DID is in the conversation

17:55 <eigenellies> anyway yes we're kind of a huge mess but it's actually much better than it was a few years ago in here

18:01 <Pinkbeast> Curiously my ex from uh some years ago was in a similar state

18:02 <Pinkbeast> ... albeit with less of a mathematician's view of the situation

18:09 <eigenellies> plurality is a Thing, yeah

18:10 <eigenellies> usually due to trauma, or at least highly related to it. we're no exception.

18:12 <eigenellies> conventional wisdom would tell me not to "expose it to the internet" as it goes, because it's a "personal private health matter" but that didn't really work very well for us. it's so much saner and easier to be transparent about it so that people aren't always like "wow what's gotten into you, you were in such a good mood yesterday" or "what do you mean you don't remember X event,

18:12 <eigenellies> were you drunk or something?"

18:12 <eigenellies> met a lot of delightful folks to compare notes with over on the fediverse, too

18:15 <Pinkbeast> This IRC channel is probably relatively private as public internet goes (yeah, I know, not the only place)

18:16 <Pinkbeast> I've known a few people like that (depending on how you count them, aha), it's weird but there's no denying it's a Thing

20:38 <Pinkbeast> (BTW, glad to hear you're still around, sort of thing...)