raptop changed the topic of #kspacademia to: https://gist.github.com/pdn4kd/164b9b85435d87afbec0c3a7e69d3e6d | Dogs are cats. Spiders are cat interferometers. | Космизм сегодня! | Document well, for tomorrow you may get mauled by a ネコバス. | <UmbralRaptor> egg|nomz|egg: generally if your eyes are dewing over, that's not the weather. | <ferram4> I shall beat my problems to death with an engineer. | We can haz pdf
<kmath>
<mycoliza> why does the largest memory allocation not simply eat the others?
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<whitequark>
i really fucking hate mofh for lying to me about promising to help, and doing absolutely nothing then, and making it completely impossible to even consider that anyone else who offers help *might* not be such a liar. i especially hate the hypocrisy of bloviating about circumstances that drive people to suicide and then doing absolutely nothing when they can, just, change these circumstances.
<whitequark>
everyone is a liar.
<mofh>
so, like, it's one thing to promise to help, and it's quite another to have literally any ability or knowledge of how to help in any capacity. especially at the time, when I had no clue what to do, or how, no ability to do it, and executive dysfunction far worse than I realized. I'm not saying that I didn't lie about that, because intent does not matter, only results do, and what I did fully amounts to
<mofh>
lying about helping and then completely failing ...
<mofh>
... to do so. But trust me when I say if I could have "just" changed those circumstances *I would have*.
<whitequark>
if i survive the next sevreal hours i'll try to write an answer.
<mofh>
*nods*
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<e_14159>
whitequark, mofh: Are you two alright? I'm currently quite concerned.
<whitequark>
no. i have not been alright once in my entire adult life. or before that really.
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<e_14159>
Are you, right now, able to cope?
<whitequark>
nah
<e_14159>
That's not good. I don't believe this medium is particularly suited to such conversations (since there's so much written text is lacking, it's essentially public, etc), but I do hope you have somebody to talk to.
<whitequark>
fuck talking. all talking does is gives me more lies
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<e_14159>
Not all; I'm not lying, for example. But I can understand how several disappointments can sour you on something.
<whitequark>
i don't think you actually can, no.
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<e_14159>
Dammit. I hope that didn't make it worse for them.
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<egg|cell|egg>
Meow
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<mofh>
egg|cell|egg: meow
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